就算我知道了绿云很有可能就是害我早产的人span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975778.png)'/span但她背后的是郑贵妃span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975778.png)'/span而且现在证据不足span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975778.png)'/span只能将此事埋在心底span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017991408.png)'/span虽然现在我没有办法整治这帮人span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975778.png)'/span但只要等到我的玉儿平安长大span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975778.png)'/span前前后后那么多账span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975778.png)'/span早晚跟她们算清楚span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975789.png)'/span
我产后体虚span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975778.png)'/span仍要日夜不停的照料玉儿span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975778.png)'/span很有些力不从心span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017991408.png)'/span好在母亲已找到了合适的奶娘span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975778.png)'/span只等一个机会好送进宫来了span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017991408.png)'/span
巧的是这日皇上来看我span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975778.png)'/span大约是好几天未见的缘故span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975778.png)'/span说我越来越瘦span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975778.png)'/span脸色也很不好的样子span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017991408.png)'/span
我哂笑道：“真是应了那句古话span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975778.png)'/span养儿方知父母恩span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975778.png)'/span臣妾现在只带着一个孩子span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975778.png)'/span却有些顾不上自己了span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017991408.png)'/span”
启恒挑了挑眉span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975778.png)'/span道：“现在知道累了也不晚span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975778.png)'/span朕这就让皇后去寻个奶娘来span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017991408.png)'/span”见我低着头不说话span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975778.png)'/span又问：“怎么span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975778.png)'/span不喜欢span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975795.png)'/span”
我抬头冲他笑了笑span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975778.png)'/span说：“其实上回母亲来看我span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975778.png)'/span就已经劝过我了span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975778.png)'/span臣妾是皇上的妃子span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975778.png)'/span臣妾的一切本该是皇上的span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975778.png)'/span可是为了一点小事臣妾总是为难皇上span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975778.png)'/span让皇上破例span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975778.png)'/span臣妾于心不安span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017991408.png)'/span”
他唇边泛起淡淡笑意：“哦span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975795.png)'/span那么你的意思呢span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975795.png)'/span”
我想了想span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975778.png)'/span道：“玉儿才落地span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975778.png)'/span皇后娘娘就张罗着为臣妾找奶娘的事span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975778.png)'/span可是臣妾太任性了span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975778.png)'/span让皇后为难span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017991408.png)'/span这个时候再麻烦皇后span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406057515.png)'/span臣妾真是……无地自容了span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017991408.png)'/span”
“皇后乃后宫之主span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406057515.png)'/span这本是她分内之事span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406057515.png)'/span有什么为难不为难的span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975795.png)'/span”
“话虽如此span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406057515.png)'/span但臣妾心中惶恐span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406057515.png)'/span还望皇上见谅span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017991408.png)'/span”我尽量让自己的笑容看起来得体span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406057515.png)'/span声音也越来越温柔span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406057515.png)'/span“为了不麻烦皇后娘娘span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406057515.png)'/span臣妾已经请母亲在宫外找了个奶娘span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406057515.png)'/span不知皇上可否……”
他忽然“哼”了一声span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406057515.png)'/span冷冷道：“你方才还说朕屡次为你破例你心中不安span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406057515.png)'/span可是现在却又要朕为你破例span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975789.png)'/span奶娘从来都是皇后和尚宫局的人挑选span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406057515.png)'/span什么时候轮到妃嫔娘家的人插手了span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975789.png)'/span”
“皇上……”我目瞪口呆span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017991408.png)'/span
他愤然一甩袖span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406057515.png)'/span道：“此事不必再说了span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975789.png)'/span”说着就要离去span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017991408.png)'/span
我呆了片刻span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406057515.png)'/span厉声喊道：“如果皇上要臣妾和玉儿的命span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406057515.png)'/span现在就拿去吧span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975789.png)'/span好过将来被人莫名其妙的害死span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975789.png)'/span落得个有冤无处诉span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975789.png)'/span”
他的身形猛地一顿span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406057515.png)'/span回头满脸震惊的望着我span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017991408.png)'/span周围的宫人早已吓得都退了下去span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406057515.png)'/span殿内只剩我俩互不相让的瞪着对方span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017991408.png)'/span
“启恒span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406057515.png)'/span我知道你从来就不希望我有孩子span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406057515.png)'/span我和孩子几次三番身陷险境span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406057515.png)'/span你都……视若无睹span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017991408.png)'/span”说出最后四个字span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406057515.png)'/span心span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406057515.png)'/span寒凉成冰span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017991408.png)'/span
他反身走到床边span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406057515.png)'/span指尖勾起我的下颚span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406057515.png)'/span冷冷道：“凭你说出这样的诛心之言span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406057515.png)'/span朕就该杀了你span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975789.png)'/spanspan class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975789.png)'/span”
我笑了起来span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406057515.png)'/span笑着笑着却又流出了眼泪：“杀我span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975795.png)'/span对你来说是轻而易举的事span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406057515.png)'/span白绫span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406057515.png)'/span匕首span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406057515.png)'/span还是……毒药呢span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975795.png)'/span要杀就来个痛快吧span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975789.png)'/span这样钝刀子割肉一样的折磨span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406057515.png)'/span我受够了span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975789.png)'/span”
“阿娆span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975789.png)'/span”他呵斥了一声span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598740/12786725/-5361873822047813846.png)'/span眼里一闪而逝的惊痛span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975789.png)'/span
我甩开他的手span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598740/12786725/-5361873822047813846.png)'/span一连串的发问：“皇上难道没有仔细想过span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598740/12786725/-5361873822047813846.png)'/span雅妃一个草原女子怎会懂得什么赏雪宴span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975795.png)'/span明明打扫的干干净净的地面怎会有油渍span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975795.png)'/span而且刚好让人踩到的时候撞到了我的身上span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975789.png)'/span皇上span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598740/12786725/-5361873822047813846.png)'/span这些您就从来没有怀疑过吗span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975795.png)'/span您以为只要杖毙那个宫女span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598740/12786725/-5361873822047813846.png)'/span就什么事都没有了吗span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975795.png)'/span”
他回避了我的目光span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017991408.png)'/span
我悲愤的几乎要大哭出来span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017991408.png)'/span
我知道你要顾及郑氏一门和二皇子span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598740/12786725/-5361873822047813846.png)'/span可是二皇子是你的儿子span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598740/12786725/-5361873822047813846.png)'/span十二皇子就不是你的儿子吗span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975795.png)'/span
不span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598740/12786725/-5361873822047813846.png)'/span说到底span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598740/12786725/-5361873822047813846.png)'/span你所最重要的span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598740/12786725/-5361873822047813846.png)'/span是皇位span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975789.png)'/span是皇权span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975789.png)'/span
他转过身span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598740/12786725/-5361873822047813846.png)'/span有些疲惫的说：“你还没出月子span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598740/12786725/-5361873822047813846.png)'/span情绪这样大span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598740/12786725/-5361873822047813846.png)'/span对身子不好span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017991408.png)'/span找奶娘的事span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598740/12786725/-5361873822047813846.png)'/span朕会处理的span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598740/12786725/-5361873822047813846.png)'/span你放心好了span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017991408.png)'/span”
他让我失望的次数已经够多了span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598740/12786725/-5361873822047813846.png)'/span再多两次span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598740/12786725/-5361873822047813846.png)'/span也没什么span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017991408.png)'/span
又过了两天span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598740/12786725/-5361873822047813846.png)'/span奶娘的事没什么进展span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598740/12786725/-5361873822047813846.png)'/span刘有余却带回一个让我更心寒的消息span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017991408.png)'/span
“连海死了span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598740/12786725/-5361873822047813846.png)'/span说是晚上喝醉了span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598740/12786725/-5361873822047813846.png)'/span走夜路掉井里去了span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975789.png)'/span尸身被拉走的时候奴才让禄子去看过span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598740/12786725/-5361873822047813846.png)'/span后颈上一道淤青span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598740/12786725/-5361873822047813846.png)'/span分明是……是被人打昏之后再推入井里的span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017991408.png)'/span”
我坐直了身子：“那绿云呢span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975795.png)'/span”
“绿云倒是没什么span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598740/12786725/-5361873822047813846.png)'/span还在雅妃那里当差span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017991408.png)'/span只不过她家里人就……”
“她家里人怎么了span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975795.png)'/span”我的心一阵阵发寒span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598740/12786725/-5361873822047813846.png)'/span难道为了保守这个秘密span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598740/12786725/-5361873822047813846.png)'/span会灭她满门不成span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975795.png)'/span
刘有余道：“小德子出宫看了一下span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598740/12786725/-5361873822047813846.png)'/span她家人从清平坊搬走了span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598740/12786725/-5361873822047813846.png)'/span说是躲债去了span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598740/12786725/-5361873822047813846.png)'/span具体搬去了哪儿span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598740/12786725/-5361873822047813846.png)'/span谁也不知道啊span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975789.png)'/span”
我正愣神间span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598745/12786725/1047592872135144203.png)'/span谷雨跑了进来span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598745/12786725/1047592872135144203.png)'/span一进来就惊慌失措的说：“我刚才听说span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598745/12786725/1047592872135144203.png)'/span承香殿的绿云上吊了span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975789.png)'/span”
春分忙问：“你听谁说的span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975795.png)'/span”
谷雨道：“我刚才路过承香殿听里面的人说的span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017991408.png)'/span好端端的span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598745/12786725/1047592872135144203.png)'/span怎么会上吊span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975795.png)'/span她不是升了一等span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598745/12786725/1047592872135144203.png)'/span正得意吗span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975795.png)'/span”
因谷雨的性子憨直span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598745/12786725/1047592872135144203.png)'/span又天真烂漫span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598745/12786725/1047592872135144203.png)'/span念着过去的情谊span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598745/12786725/1047592872135144203.png)'/span有些事我没有让她知道span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598745/12786725/1047592872135144203.png)'/span为的就是不想让她也变成后宫里的死水span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598745/12786725/1047592872135144203.png)'/span看不到一点波澜span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017991408.png)'/span我宁愿她保持着这一份童真span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598745/12786725/1047592872135144203.png)'/span快快乐乐的活到出宫span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017991408.png)'/span
所以关于绿云的事span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598745/12786725/1047592872135144203.png)'/span她并没有参与span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017991408.png)'/span可是没想到span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598745/12786725/1047592872135144203.png)'/span绿云这么快就死了span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017991408.png)'/span
在这个时候死了span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598745/12786725/1047592872135144203.png)'/span就在我和启恒说出那些话之后的两天span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017991408.png)'/span
我闭上眼span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598745/12786725/1047592872135144203.png)'/span躺在床上span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598745/12786725/1047592872135144203.png)'/span挥挥手span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598745/12786725/1047592872135144203.png)'/span对她们说：“我累得很span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598745/12786725/1047592872135144203.png)'/span你们都下去吧span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975789.png)'/span”
“娘娘……”春分似乎想劝慰我span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406043941.png)'/span
我只是摇了摇头：“没事span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598745/12786725/1047592872135144203.png)'/span都下去吧span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406043941.png)'/span”
她们都退了出去span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598745/12786725/1047592872135144203.png)'/span闭上眼span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598745/12786725/1047592872135144203.png)'/span眼前便是漆黑一片span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406043941.png)'/span我像是游走在暗夜里的盲人span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598745/12786725/1047592872135144203.png)'/span看不到一丝光明；又像是飘在海面上忍受着风暴的浮萍span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598745/12786725/1047592872135144203.png)'/span总感觉随时都会被涌流吞没span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406043941.png)'/span
身边的小人儿忽然动了一下span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598745/12786725/1047592872135144203.png)'/span我忙睁开眼看向他span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598745/12786725/1047592872135144203.png)'/span他却只是嘟了嘟嘴span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598745/12786725/1047592872135144203.png)'/span却没醒来span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406043941.png)'/span
我怔怔的看着他span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598745/12786725/1047592872135144203.png)'/span忽然攥紧了手心span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406043941.png)'/span
人常说span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598745/12786725/1047592872135144203.png)'/span为母则强span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406043941.png)'/span
所以我为了我的孩子要变得强大span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598745/12786725/1047592872135144203.png)'/span才能应付那些随时可能伤害我们的敌人span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598735/12786725/4369560544406043941.png)'/span哪怕那个敌人是这孩子的父亲span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598745/12786725/1047592872135144203.png)'/span我也span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598750/12786725/-8683841498143934630.png)'/span绝不退缩span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349143598730/12786725/-6653843968017975789.png)'/span
（PS：是不是又开始啰嗦了我）